Magical Chest

I’m three months raw now. As you could read on this blog, I’ve had cheat days, set-backs and even binge attacks on cooked foods, so I haven’t been entirely 100% raw all this time. But almost, and definitely enough to gain some experience with the raw foods diet.

I’ve decided to go down to 70-90% raw for a few weeks. Why? Well, because I’m losing weight too fast. I lost exactly 10kg / 22lbs in those three months, which is about 13% of my start weight of 75kg / 165lbs.

I was at least 20kg / 44lbs overweight when I went raw, so losing this weight is of course a great thing. I’m very happy about it, especially because I didn’t do anything to lose weight. I didn’t exercise more than usually nor did I count calories or restrict myself in any way. I never was hungry. AND I did build a lot of muscle at the same time :-)

So why do I want to stop it? I know that so many people would be so happy to have this happen to them. However I’d like to take a break. I’m a bit ashamed to admit it, but I’m uncomfortable with this quick weight loss.

My body’s changing permanently. Every morning when I wake up, something is different. I suddenly realize that I have a skeleton. I wasn’t aware of it before because I couldn’t see it. Now some bones are coming out of my body like aliens. My body gets harder and when I bump into the furniture it hurts. When I look at my wrists I sometimes don’t recognize them spontaneously. I look at my face in the mirror and find it strange. My clothes don’t fit anymore. All this feels so weird and even a bit scary.

I can also feel that my body’s working like crazy, inside. Even when I just sit around and do nothing, something, inside, is very busy. With transformations, maybe? I don’t know. I’m not feeling tired, because I have a tremendous energy, but it’s like all my attention is focused inwards. Great things are happening beneath the surface.

I just need a break. I’d like to have the same body every day for a few weeks, and get used to my new look before I lose some more weight. I’d also like to stop being that busy inside and just take some rest for a while. I wish for peace.

As for the diet itself, looking back I’d say eating raw gets easier and easier the more time goes by. At first I had to think about it a lot, but with time it becomes more and more natural and fun and a part of who I am.

I now have a hard time remembering how difficult it was at the beginning, even though at the beginning I definitely found it more difficult than quitting smoking!

I wish you a wonderful day, I’m going to buy some cooked food now ;-)

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